He wondered
What the future would hold
What it would be like
Going back in
If he could go back to being somewhat Neutral
Private
How, if in someway, maybe, he could help his people, keep them safe….
This was the frontlines
And he thought about how every man
Every individual
Has to mentally prepare themselves
Not unlike a paratrooper
Just getting dropped into a zone
You do that work yourself
Mentally
You change on a dime if your circumstances change
You adjust
You let things go
He hoped
Inside
That he was good
He just wanted to be good
Regarding Samuel 