– why won’t she talk to me? I don’t understand…we had so much in common and now she’s just disappeared again! She comes and goes and I don’t know what to do…
I watched as my friend continued this emotional rollercoaster holding her face in her hands, blaming herself, hating herself, for simply caring or opening up…
-Listen,
I said
– you may never get the closure you want or feel that you need. And you have to be ok with that. Some people, go through people. When they’re bored, or lonely, or missing something…some people get easily distracted and just lose track….they have tunnel vision. When it’s on you it’s great. When it’s not it’s cold…
I don’t know what to tell you, it’s really up to you. What are you going to be ok with? We all work. We all have lives. It takes 3 seconds to send a message. Are you worth three seconds?
(Our other friend waved his hands in the air agreeing.)
– you know,
He started his own soap box of psycho babble
– it’s in what you give. I always give a lot of cash and attention
I stopped him
– Your girlfriend didn’t fall in love with you because of your presents, I don’t know, maybe she did, maybe she didn’t…but she also left you….
She fell for you because you gave her your attention
You let her know when you were thinking about her
You let her know even though you were busy, you were working, that you were still thinking about your queen.
You valued her…
The presents were just a plus and then you stopped and you got lazy after you got her and she left
Because she knew what you were capable of and she knew what she was worth…
You have to dance with people
And you have to let them know you care
And you have to make your mind up
What are you going to be able to live with?
Half hearts ?
Mediocre
Or are you going to show up
Say what you feel and mean
But have a standard to it
(He just stared at me)
– anyway it’s the presents, you have to buy your way in.
(Stop man just stop.)
– I don’t know what is right or wrong
People want to be craved, they want to be desired, they want to be fought over and pursued. And some people get so used to looking for something better and all the choices that they forget someone may not pick them or chase them and they just go through people. Or they can’t make a decision at all.
They freeze
I don’t know
It’s really up to you
But you can’t make her mind up yourself
You can only make yours
What are you going to be able to live with?
(She stared at the floor)
– I don’t know, I’m not sure….everything hurts.
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