The bible says somethin’ about the Holy Spirit leaving the earth near the last days…how hard it is for man after that.
That’s what I thought of when I saw her…
Her face was black and not even blue, just broken and taped back together…
She couldn’t even wince from the pain of walking, she was stiff like our grandfather…and stood like a crow bar.
She was 25.
When we left the hospital, we went to get her things. From the garbage excuse of a trailer, he was supposed to be at work…
But I guess that’s how these things and men and the way of young love goes…
They’re accountable for nothing…not even an 11 dollar an hour job.
I remember her clothes had black patches of sweat and mold in them.
They smelled of cigarettes
The kitchen table was dirty from the residue.
The place smelled of that smell you only get from a broken refrigerator…
I opened it just to make sure ,
There in the center of all that rotten was last nights box of take out…
“Ugh What the hell…”
I had to find the bathroom and quick
There were holes in the wall all the way down the hall…I turned in to wash my face….
The shower was black and molded
The water was off…
I kicked the lid to the toilet open
Before I started vomiting
It hit me in the face like a train
Packed full of shit
Why the hell did she stay here?
He kicked her around and around
He came stumbling in angrier than a starved dog…
Knife in his hands
Gun in his belt
I grabbed the knife by the blade and kicked him across the room
He took off in his car, but didn’t make it far…
He wrestled for a while with the locals and kicked a few down
He drew his gun
And started cursing about my sister and how he owned her
There was a fence he had crashed into
A tamping pole or rod leaning against it
I picked it up and ran it through his foot
“Shut up for once in your life.”
He cried all the way to jail.
I kept thinking about that verse
All of her hurts
Why men do what we do
And what kind of man
Can live with that?
Maybe it’s a different kind of evil…
My father killed men in the war
And his father too
I thought about that as I set another charge on a tree.
He was spitting and cursin’ as we brought him down in the thicket.
“You can’n’t kill me! They’re gunna fine out ‘bout it! Yew stupid idgit! She’s MINE I will have what’s MINE!
Married before GOD and everybody ! “
“Oh I’m not going to kill you…God might…but I won’t …the wolves might…but me? I’m just going to hurt you…if you die…it’s up to a higher power than me…now the sheriff, he’s gonna think you ran again, You know, like you did my sister…when you made her run and you played your little hunting games?….you better run…”
I raised my gun…and the headlights…
He made it a few paces I guess…
The last I heard were some obscenities
Then I charged the blasts
the trees exploded around him
I thought about her and the Holy Ghost and the war and the 4th of July…