The years fly by
Faster than light in a memory
Now everything changes
My friend
My friend
Remember when…
Walking from the fire
Took everything you had
Some things burn hot
Some blood burns cold
Some hearts turn to stone
Get your chains off me
The years fly by
Faster than light
Everything’s changing
You should’ve seen it
Are we born again and sober
Or are we just older ….
Said we didn’t change
When the darkness passed over but look at us colder….
-E
A look back at some typewritten
Hang in there
This is life
This is what you’ve got
I flipped the script
I changed it up
Maybe I was a fool
Sure
I panicked in the beginning
Thought what the hell have I done
But then you ask
Ok what do I do now?
I have to keep going forward
I have to
I can’t stop
I can’t stop
The sky is the limit
But we’re going to break through that too…
Both feet on the ground
Reality can be distressing
But if you’ve got the moves
Stay in the ring
Pressing
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I know you want to scream
3am what kind of life is this…
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Build a dream
This is your life ….
What you get is what you’ve got…
What do we do about it ?
What are you gonna do now?
Keep pressing
Keep writing
Keep building
Soon you’ll be flying
Looking back saying
Look at that
We overcame
What we thought would crush us
We surprised even ourselves
We can build
We can change
We can run this race
That boy from the mountains
Passed down shoes
Kerosine heat
Concrete floors
A lot of sacrifice
But look where it got you…
Look at what a boy can do…
Keep your head down
Keep pressing
Keep writing
Keep climbing
Soon you’ll be flying
-E
Here’s the thing I’ve learned
Simplify
It’s so easy
Break things down to their root value…
Simplify
Move through life with intention
And focus
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When things pull at you
And bid for your attention
Simplify
What does this have to do with me and my goals ?
Carry on …
Simplify
You can’t fix everything
Maybe later you can
But you have to go to that place so you can level up and come back here and help those who helped you level up as well…
But to get there
You have to keep your focus and again…
Simplify…
-E
It’s time to get up
Ain’t nobody here taking you out
Nobody gonna save you
Nobody left to bluff
It’s my call
My choice
My goals
In front of me
I’ve got the fire
I’m not playing
All original
Above average
I’ve got what you need
More than you could ever want
Hard times can always reload
Bullet proof
Feet on the ground
Leading by example
Born in the darkness
Shaped by the process
I don’t know if you’re ready
For the prize fight
This is more than a lifeline
This is the show of a lifetime
Ohh
Get up
Go get it
No questions
No limits
You only get one opportunity
One shot
Doors close
Lights off
Fire it up
Fire it up
Press on
Man you born for this
Above average
Carry it!
They don’t make them like you
Not normal
Shaped by the times
Go get it
Go get it
Feeling the roots to the pain
Reaching deep down
For my witness
Got to admit there was seasons
Where I doubted the existence
But I figure
When the devils at your door
Every night telling you
To give in to the doubt
And you’re lesser somehow
If there’s a heaven there’s a hell
Vice to verse
One love one lane
One season one pain
One gain
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I’m inspired somehow
He never said he’d supply a luxury
He said I’d have enough bread for the day
I have bread in my freezer
Rice on my counter
A beer in my hand
Enough for the day
Every day
Somehow
Know now
I’m not giving in
I’m not giving out
Not to the doubt
It’s the fire
In my heart
In my eyes
He knows the need
I’m not giving in
I’m not giving out
And there at the cross roads
I’m waiting for my victory
Working out
Not doubting it
I’m so close
Breaking through the lies
I’m not settling
I’m shooting for the sky
Taking what’s mine
Who made the rules ?
I hate losing
I’m running not from my past
But from poverty
From this lesser part of me
I’m taking everything to victory
I know what the past has
My life has got to be like this
My life has got to be like this
Moving forward
-E
Feeling subdued
Automatic
Dreams
Feeling the ice cold
Cover my soul
Coming in hot
Just to melt it
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They said you had red letter days
Mug shots
Shot to shot
You living on hustle hard
Bread and alcohol
I finished my last rice
I’m not stopping
I’m not stopping halfway
I’ve bled too much
Sacrificed too much
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I only get one shot
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And she’s pushing hard
Building what she sees
But how is it that she can’t win
When she walks in the room
It’s her clothes
And
Are you with her just for the comfort her body allows
It’s times like these we’ve got to figure it out
What we thought we were
What we thought life and love was
And what it actually is
Who we are has to rise up
And overcome what we’ve been
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I admit
I was playing in the beginning
But now I’m hungry
I’ve seen the possibility
And it’s feeding me
We’re not the same as everyone
And that’s fine
You write to kill you kill to write
Putting the words down just to suffer getting them out
It’s a struggle but you’re real
You’re not missing any note shots
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She enters the room she don’t care what you think, what she does and says , wears and thinks, how she moves how she breathes, unapologetic, she’s a different fire new breed the lay-off payoff
Her 9-9 is cashing out your receipts
She’s cashing out
Building wow
You can’t figure her out
New breed new fire fresh desire
Old you can’t apply
Her foundations are older than time
Her hustle is real and you can’t buy that from the App Store.
-E
You’re not built the same as all of those other people …
You’re not meant to fit in
Stop trying
You can’t look to the past
You can’t go back…
You can’t
Those years are gone
You’ve been through too too much
You’ve seen too much
You are not the same you…
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Those years
You grew
You had it hard
You worked hard
You grew up in the dark
You were building
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You can’t look back hoping for people for something that is gone…
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I remember working when I was 6
I remember going to the hospital when I was 18 and having surgery
And thinking “I can relax …I can sleep…I can’t fix everything …but I can relax now…”
I remember all the hard mornings and hard nights …
I remember
But I do not blame them or no one …
Those things made me who I am…
I choose…
I choose to build …
And I choose to keep fighting…
I will not quit…
We’ve came too far to quit …
And if you’re unrecognisable
If people don’t know what to do with you
If you make them nervous
If you can’t be labelled
Good.
You’re building your own brand
You’re a new thing
Do not quit
Hard times made you
You were meant for this.
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Job scraped boils with pottery
Seeking a moment of comfort …
But he did not quit…
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You’re different
You’re meant to be different
You’re not normal
You’re a different breed
They don’t make them like you anymore
Because you are born in darkness
You are born out of survival
You are born
Out of decision
You chose at some point
Who and what you were going to be …
You saw what was around you…
But you carried a vision in your gut and tho you were born in struggle and darkness, you had fire in your bones …
And you cannot quit
You’ve made it this far…
You may fall…
You may get hit…
You may struggle
You may doubt …
You may get tired …
But you always come back …
You learn
You move with the hits
You get stronger
You build back
You’re building something …
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You’re not suppose to fit the mold of what is common
Because you’re uncommon.
It’s not normal to be like you are…
And thats ok.
You were meant for such a time as this…
-E
I don’t know any other way to say it
Hang in there
Just hang in there,love.
If you make it
Head above water
Hold your body next to mine
But no,
You’re on your own
Alone
When it’s quiet at 3am
Not a single jot would change a thing
Drifting
No
Hang in there
You’ve made it this far
But if you make it this far??
I’m numb
I don’t feel anything
I’ve worked through this entire year
I’m working still
No relief package
No help
Just working three jobs
Head barely above water
The madness vase
No sleeping in until 9am
Not enough money even to invest
If Door dash went live
Tomorrow
Friends I know would be rich
“Peace!”
But I’m still right here
Observing and waiting
But I’m tired
I’m so fucking tired
And I feel nothing
Nothing
Less than nothing
Less
Everyone is bitching
And it’s 12 months in
I thought we’d just began?
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Hang in there, love
You’re not out of battery
Things don’t have the meaning
That they appear to
Hang in
Regarding Samuel 