New moons

How many times

Did we check out

Just to keep

from reading the signs

How many days

Felt the same

How ways did we pass the blame

We don’t have to

We don’t have to say this

Is our lives

—-

I know you’re

Fearing the fall

Tired from it all

This doesn’t have to be

The way we live and die

—-

Stop the sky

From raining down

Tell the lies

If it makes you feel better

Somehow

But we don’t have to live and die

—-

I know you’re tired

I know you’re wired

I know we checked out

Just to keep from reading the signs

But the world is tilted

And we are not permanent

Rest your eyes

If it heals your soul

I’ll hold you through the night

We will live

We will live

For another day

Regardingsamuel

2020 #45

I just want to be good…

All my cards are on the table

No one is going to bail me out

If I don’t make it

It’s easy to say there’s more to life than money

When you haven’t been without it

The enemy of good is perfect

What’s the use

I wear this bruise

Can I make it through

I’m dreaming out loud

I’m running t

Who are the ones

Who made promises

Out there late at night

That they would get out

And those friends are gone now

Who else is running

A race

For their younger self

For their friends that are already dead

Even though

They will never see them

Cross the finish line

Do you know the pain

I carry every single day

Do you know

That emptiness

How low those roots go

Maybe

We really can have too much

Maybe

We just pack ourselves with light

And distraction

Maybe

Poverty

Real poverty

Leaves a scar

I remember potatoes

Every winter breeze through the window

Maybe there’s a kid over there

Who knows about playing football

On a frozen driveway

Maybe

I keep putting things off

And I’m afraid

And

When it’s late at night

I pour a drink

And I see her eyes

In the stars in the sky

And I’m afraid

Of what I feel

I write some words

And I send them her way

All I have is empathy

All I have is poetry

All I know

Is how to be me

All I know is

Time is running

I am running

But remember

There’s a kid out there

Who’s going to see your story

There’s a kid out there

Living something similar

You’re not alone in this

You can’t do what everyone else is doing

We live in a do what feels right

Do what feels good in the moment

But that’s what children do

We are not children

We come from adults

We have witness in heaven

And we plan

We make goals

We have a personal responsibility

To ourselves

To our communities

To our dreams

No one else will get it

They don’t have to

It’s not my parents fault

It’s not anyone’s fault

I’m just tired of kissing up to banks

For credit

I’m tired of living a life that is not mine

I’m tired of sitting in crowds of people

That are always looking for the next feel good drag.

I’m going somewhere

I know what I want

I want peace

I want comfort

I want freedom

I want passion

I want love

I want to be better than I was yesterday

Better than I was last year

There is a line that only loss

Writes

And I carry it with me

Like a rose

Regardingsamuel

Language

We were sleepwalking

Passing each other

Like two ghosts haunting the same

House

New bedclothes

New furnishings

Plates

But no appetite

No desire

——

2020 on the forecast

Nothing we planned came to pass

We are frightened

By nothing

Flattened by morning

——

What is appetite?

Craving

Look me in the eye

Your skin

Your sin

Look me in the eyes

You’ll see my poetry

Waiting all night

To see you

It’s not masked by this year

It’s brought back

To the base value

The foundation

Remove the complexities

The trivial

——

Appetites

Cravings

Passions

Your skin

Your lips

We don’t have to move

Through time

Waiting

For right moments

Perfect places

They don’t exist

Our bodies moving together

There are still some things

We can say

Without speaking

-regardingsamuel.com

What if

What if –
We all supported each other
What if –
Their win isn’t your loss
What if-
You didn’t cut someone or something down
Every time you built something up
What if-
You wore the shirts
The shorts
The skirts
And
Other women didn’t reprimand you
What if –
Women were celebrated for their accomplishments and not just for marriage-
What if they didn’t spend every moment making sure they weren’t tempting men
Or acting just right
Or under the microscope of everything
What if we all could just discuss and compromise on politics and ideas
What if
We’ve been duped into believing in a win lose
Good guy
Bad guy
Good wife
Bad wife
Good girl
Bad girl
—-/
What if there are none of these things ?
There’s just you and me
us
Right here
In small towns
Big cities
One life
Fighting
Editing each other
When we could be coming together
Building eachother up
Winning
And helping those coming up next
To do the same
——
What if
You crushed your goals
You wore the shirts
The skirts
The clothes
The shoes
The look
You did what made you happy
Really
Really
happy
And you were great at it.
You can
You don’t have to settle for one hour every few weeks with your person
You don’t have to chase things
That make you miserable
And you don’t have to defend yourself
You don’t have to make excuses
You are valid
If you want something more
You deserve something more
You don’t have to wait for permission

Go be you
And celebrate you
Your wins
Your accomplishments
And notice those around you when they win
And celebrate them too.
I believe we all can win.
And why shouldn’t we?
What else is there?
-Regardingsamuel.com

📷@ Ethan Bethune

The lives we lived

All I know is how to be me
I know what I want
I know where I am going
I’m going forwards
——
I remember the night the tornadoes wrecked our home towns
I remember the night my dad died
I remember
Sitting in my car and making myself walk in the funeral home to look at my best friend who had died three days before …
I remember my grandmother dying from cancer and telling me about WWll
And my grandfather dying from heart ache after she passed
——
I’ve noticed everyone is into self help and therapy
And that’s great
——
But don’t forget to live
We are are promised nothing
You have to live -well, no you don’t…
But if you hope to at some future point
When things are better
When life is easier
After your healing
After the storm
After the divorce
Stop
Start today
Time is all we have and it’s Always running …

Keep your courage
Keep your strength
And face it

Live

Rest

It’s ok to relax

It’s ok to enjoy

It’s ok to just lie here

Resting your head on me

What would happen if the earth

Tried too hard to take in the rain?

Relax

Rest your body

And your mind

Tell me your favorite

Memories

Tell me nothing at all

I’ll sing to you

And run my hands through your hair

And read to you,until you fall asleep

-Regardingsamuel.com