
lately

Out on the highway
Out there on the long way
Where the lights follow you close behind
There’s a bend in the road
Where only god knows
Where the lights go
—///
She appears
Where he turned his back on her way back when…
Chased his restless flame
—///
Her tears turned to rain
Rain flowed into rivers
Rivers into oceans
And oceans never fill….
We are beaten by the crashing waves
Only god knows
How to understand
How to hold
These restless hands
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Father Time
Broke Mother Nature
And only God knows
How to understand ….
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There’s something about grace
There’s something about the contradiction of the heart and mind
And these
Restless hands
We used to have these ice storms
We would go out afterwards
Play football in the driveway
Ride our bikes
Trying not to wreck
Pretending to Rally Race
Skin our elbows and knees until they bled
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I always wanted to be a football player…
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We burned some trees in our back yard and I remember the heat…
Sometimes it felt like things couldn’t get hotter than that.
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And then you sit down and try to write
And that vulnerable
That nakedness
Staring at you on the page
It’s like a woman opening up to you
Or letting you go down on her
Really opening up
Vulnerability
If you don’t honor that
What are you?
—/
You try to write
You don’t want to whine
You don’t want to echo
And you don’t know
It feels like we are all saying the same things
You feel out of place
The wrong year
The wrong life
What do you do with your time
Someone told me they were falling out of love
It was like trying to catch rain in a cup
Is anything sacred like intimacy?
I just keep writing
Because I can’t stop
They say that one day
You wake up and it’s off
Like love
It just leaves the room
But I keep being that romantic
I keep getting up
Saying good morning beauty
And writing anyway ….
I know that one day, one morning,
I’ll be closer anyway
One day, one morning, I’ll put my guards away.
You know I’m no good
there’s still time for me
To change
And
Every-thing under the sun
Just stays on repeat
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The weatherman says
The world will implode
And the business man said
It’s about to snow
—/
It seems to me
We should have kept those steel oats ….
Winter is short
And
Summer is long
I’d buy you an island maybe a beach
But you wouldn’t be happy hun
Maybe next year will be better
We’ll see….
—/
The way you walked in the room
I thought you were looking at me
I guess it was just that saloon song
You know I’m no good
But there’s still time for me to change …
—-/
You know the world was no good
Until you walked in the room
Now it’s fire works and the fullest moon
I was drinking gin
But I switched to champagne
They say everything under the sun
Just repeats itself
That’s how the world was won
I keep selling to myself
That nights like this
Make a man dream…
I hope it repeats
Until I’m walking on the ceiling
Through to the moon
Shaking hands with the holy host
Write my name in the book of most
Maybe it was the saloon song
Maybe it was your kiss
But I think it’s time for a change
-E
Be intentional.
Don’t waste people’s time.
You can be anything you want.
Courageous, bold. Real.
A poet. A teacher.
Just don’t be something you’re not.
‘Cos chances are, she already knows if you like her. Even before you do.
And if you waste her time, well, that’s really hard for intelligent people to forgive. It’s all we have. And there’s nothing more intelligent than a woman.
-E
I just want solitude
And beauty too
And if that rings true
You don’t have to give me forever
Just another moment with you
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Don’t let time pass you by
I know you have to go
The shadows are covering the sky
But I hope
I left you something
Good
I hope
I left you something
To remember
I hope
In this solitude
this beauty
That is you
There’s a man
Going around
Passing out promises
Gold and silver too
But the success
Never reaches down this far
No,
They won’t follow you down
And every woman I know
Works harder than two men
And they love
And they bleed
And they sew up our needs
And like Cash said
“When the man comes around”
Well, they won’t follow you down
So we fight
And we survive
Even when our paychecks
Barely make it through
What else are we to do
The silver and gold
Doesn’t come down this far
But they pass it around
With promises too
But they won’t follow you down
—-///
And I
I can’t write
My head is filled with clouds
I try to sit
But I can’t breathe
I watch the colour in the trees
And I think
About the dumpster on the side of the road where we used to get shoes and we used to get books…
And I think
About time
I hope I’ve used mine
Well
I think about the old man
Who lived in a school bus
And had a teenager for a wife
Her eyes said she had escaped something worse
A sort of curse
But I was too young to understand
Now, I think as I try to write, what good am I? What good am I?
If we can’t listen
If we look away
What good am I
And what good have I done …
A clouded head is part of Crohn’s
Just like the ache in the bones
The shouting stomach
The anxiety and the depression
I write about it but I can’t talk about it
And you’ll never see it
I guess
We all are just stories in the end
And we want what we want
And we say it sets us apart
And we expect others to know
But part of us stays on the road
Because even we don’t know…
And all we have is time…
Jfk was keenly curious and aware. He traveled Europe and observed politics on the ground. He didn’t have to use historians, he saw first hand the propaganda machine.
He understood the importance of image.
Being a war hero, and ill himself, always in poor health. He somehow presented a positive energy and outlook that was contagious.
He was the blue print for a new brand and structure of politics.
His ideas were shaped from experience.
He was understanding, because he knew people consumed what they heard and saw. He understood the importance of democracy, that it had to work. It was the last best stand on earth.
I can’t help but wonder sometimes, how odd that we recall the death over the life. The women over the veteran,
Deeply curious about political history
He wanted to understand.
I want to understand
If this is the last best stand on earth …
What am I living for ?
What am I leaving ?
Most people want so desperately to be told what to do
And they don’t even know it
Not even when you tell them what to buy
They don’t know what they want
Or that they need something
Until we sell it to them
They don’t know who to vote for
Until it’s sold to them
What they believe
Until it’s sold to them
Ads
And images
Propaganda
It’s what we consume every day
I unplugged
This site is my only social media right now
Until after the new year
My head is in a fog
I never read
I want to write more
And really create
But I’m angry
I’m confused
I feel like we have more in common than we have differences
But now
We are constantly pitted against ourselves and against eachother
JFK understood things needed to change
We didn’t need a hand out
We needed a hand up
So we could get ahead
And so we could give back
We had a responsibility
But I wonder if we even know what that responsibility is
I ask myself if we even remember what a dream is ?
Or are we so deep in the mud
That we are fighting only ourselves now ….
I want to believe in a tomorrow
I want to believe in us
Because of us
We determine our future
And we can decide today
What we are building
Can endure
Tradition
Requires repetition
We have to start somewhere
Why not here?
Why not now?
Why not us?
l'année se sent éternelle
le solitaire
résonne à travers le vide à l'intérieur d'un cœur
j'essaye de t'écrire
j'essaye de ne pas m'accrocher aux choses
pour combler le vide
mais juste être
être ici maintenant
peut-être que les saints étaient seuls
peut-être le martyr
peut-être qu'aucun de nous n'est parfait
peut-être que nous pouvons juste être bons ...
laisse moi être bon
et soulager la douleur quelque part
et laisser quelqu'un
personne ne ressent ce que je ressens ...
et saches
s'il vous plaît savoir
que quand mes yeux ou mes pensées te voient
ils ne voient que toi
pas une illusion
et il y a de la poésie ...