Dear you
Dear you
I know you feel like nothing
I know you feel like you’re overwhelmed
On your own
Feel it
You’re doing better than you think you are
Alnitak, is the brightest class 0 star in the sky ….found in Orion’s Belt…
1,262 light years from earth
Your light
Even overwhelmed
Even isolated
Is like this blue super giant
I know you think there are thousands just like you….
But this is you
Keep going
You’re doing better than you think you are
You’re unique
You matter
And when I look across the city
When I look across the room
When I look…
I always see you
I don’t know how not to…
-E
Loving
Love
“I miss my dad. He kind of died on this day.”
“From what you’ve told me, he was shitty. You pick your family. They’re not blood.”
I probably should’ve left then…
We were just incompatible
And it’s not anyone’s fault….
It’s just how things go. We were so young.
You’re going to lose,
You already know how this ends.
It’s not you against the world,
It’s you against you,
Against your ideals,
Your ego.
Beauty fades
Sex fades
You’re going to lose,
Businesses
Careers
Finances
Children
Parents
Siblings
Pets
Each other
Mental health
Health
——
It’s hospitals
NG tubes
Surgery
——-
It’s more than
Netflix and chill
More than
Romance
More thank vacations
More than weekends
——
You will win too
You will have weddings
And children
And birthdays
Holidays
Valentines
Weekends
Sunday breakfasts
Hours and hours of the best sex
But it’s so, so important that
You find someone
Who understands
What it is to lose
And how to just be there
When you do not feel
Your best self
——
Because you will lose
You already know
How this ends
We all do
And I hope you are fortunate
To find someone
You can grow with
And grow old with
Understand
One of you may take growing old
Harder than the other
That you may look
And say it’s like you’ve
Fell in love fifty different times
With every new version
Of each other
see
That love
Is evolving
It’s an empty home
That you fill
And you both have furniture and ideas ….
I hope you understand
You get what you already have
And multiply it….
May it always be peace
Understanding
And a place you can call home.
But most of all
Love.
-E
Regardingsamuel.com
These mountains
We’re wide awake
Keeping it too close to the heart, babe
There’s no way to know
How long we will be around
——
It sticks in the sides
Hot steel
Like fire and suicide
Acid rain and fog
Behind the eyes
It shows in the fracking
To the gut
The scars never heal
The stapled flesh
——
Let the world run through you
Open highway
It’s just the words in front of your eyes
Textured rooms
Broken vessels
Hearts that try to change
Struggle with the strain
So against
A greatest hits
For broken souls
Declaring this is not our end
——-
Let’s keep it close to the heart
Keep it taken care of
Everyday there’s some kind of pain
But what else is ever going to change
—-
Some days I can’t eat
And some days I can’t see
Some days I drink just to numb the noise
And stop writing things down
And damn
Oh my girl
She’s got starship eyes
She says she knows
How things burn down
She knows how things end
In shutdown towns
Let’s keep it close
To the heart
Keep it close to the start
Keep it real
Acid rain and fog behind my eyes
And cracking hands
Fracking gut
And
Sea of dreams
Riding the river
Riding across this mountain
Born out of shutdown towns
——
We’re wide awake
Keep it close
close
To the heart
to the start
Keep it real
-E
Moons (2019)
Let go of all of your weights
You’re free
To forgive yourself
You’re free to
Live with yourself
You’re free
And this heart
Still beating on the butchers floor
And these lungs
Are still breathing
Under water
And you numbered all of my scars
But in case they didn’t tell you…
Too much perfection
Is just a mistake
(What would we do with it?)
(If we caught it)
Like the lines in the palms of her hands
Did you trace them?
The breaths she takes
Did you notice them?
The air
The light
Just as you break the surface of the water
The way she parts her lips
That first kiss
Did you taste it…
(The moon is down
I’m dissolving into her skin…)
Too much perfection …
What would we even do with it…
Don’t make lists against yourself …
Go gently
Like the moonlight over water…
-E
Saturday
Lane closures
I don’t understand the world today
I don’t understand anything I see
Sometimes I can’t breathe
Sometimes I feel like a mystery
Sometimes I wonder at night
If it’s me to blame
Sometimes
I’m just tired
I want a bitter standard
Anything can happen
Anything at all ….
Look at how they break her
The butchers floor
Her bed became her misery
And we just keep it on repeat
And call it history
And she’s in love
What ever happen to
Have and to hold
heartbreaker
Full Americana
He’s got the radio jack
Your hearts on fire
He’s got his six string reigned in
You’ll be the grit
He’s got the fire
To keep you runnin’ these roads
trailer park cities
Cemetery towns
Pothole
Three jobs and a heart on the sleeve
Your Heartbreakers
The waters always rise
But he’ll keep you believing someone can see a light and the end of the road
Full Americana
The hook
The pistol
The alcohol
The words
The dream
Full rock n roll
Nothing to believe
Just the music
The music and what you’re working for
——-
“Well, you know who I am
So don’t treat me like I’m someone else
Well, you know what I am
So don’t act like I’m something else
You know where I am
So don’t act like I’m somewhere else…”
-Tom Petty – We Grew up Fast
More than
I know you
Say
When your body was
Tighter
Your heart was lighter
Or
Soon
You will be more
But right now ….
And I know
Believe me I know
Things don’t always work out
I’m still pulling scales
Out of this flesh and bone
Anger and stone
Setting down my knives
But I still feel somehow
The shadows of those wounds
Dreams die
And
We continue
——-
But you
You’re more than a woman
To me
Right here
In this cemetery town
More than a woman
Right now
As you are
More than you know
More than you’ve been
More than you know ….
