Decades

I’ve been here for so long now

Even the shadows are years…

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The press and the prince of peace

The rust and nightmares in my sleep

They all drink together

But I’ve still been sober

I’ve gotten over

Whatever it was …

It was lost in the rush of drafts

And forgotten notes

On my typewriter and guitar …

—-

Whatever you think you are

However far you’ve come

Just wait

Don’t be the fool at the gate

Giving it all away

You’ll surprise yourself

There’s still time to change

Just wait

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I’ve been here so long now

Even the shadows are years

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They will put you in first

Pour you a glass

Pat you on the back

Hurry up kid

Join our sadness

We feel the same as you

Sorrowful clown

But the years turn to decades

Weekend for weekend

Nothing ever changes

Only

Your sorrow to anger

Your affection to addiction

You’re stuck now

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Get out kid

Get born

It’s inside of you

The thing you’re looking for

In the world

At the end of the road

At the bottom of the glass

It’s inside of you

The change you need

The strength to shoulder the burden

Of simply living and bleeding

Walking and sleeping

Eating and loving

And if you are leaving

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I’ve been here so long now

Even the shadows are years

You have everything you need

The worst has already been written

The best is in beginning

But the courage is in the finish …

– E

Elijah

There’s an old story of Elijah hiding in the cave …
He believed he was finished
He was the only one left
He would stay there and die
The earth was finished
Everything was hopeless
—-
We overlook
How the Lord had fed him all along the way
Seeing that he was burned out
fed him 40 days and nights
with him all that time…
—-
And we overlook
How he brought an earthquake
And a wind storm
A pillar of fire but the Lord wasn’t in any of it …
He was in the calm…
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Remember who you are
The quiet
The calm
The ability to adapt
To create
To hold
And to know…
To know…
—-
Build your life
Quietly and assuredly
There are no shortcuts
The world is not ending
You are not alone
You
Are
In the calm

  • E

Shipwrecks

Bob Dylan

Strange things have happened
It’s all happened here before
It’s just the ghost of old shipwrecks
Passing by your doors
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Sleep in peace tonight
There’s nothing new under the sun
Take your hand from your gun
This too shall pass
Sleep in peace tonight
The wolves are howling
The nightmare is crawling
Over your back pages
It’s gonna leave its mark
And these passages soon will be read
The world is not falling
It’s only turning
the ghost of the past
That old hangman
That old dust bowl
That famine
And recession
The flies that nag
The dog that bites
The tempers flared
Like shots at the moon
The stars are falling
Falling over Alabama tonight
It’s all been done before
Look out kid
They’re digging up the interstate again…
This too shall pass
Keep you hand off your gun
Do right be right
Don’t take short cuts
You will short yourself in the end …
Do right be right kid …
You’re just in the foyer
The world is just beginning …
Strange things have happened
Where’s all our Dylan’s
Standing by the road …
Do right be right kid
The words will come and they will go…
The Phoenix destroyed your kitchen stove
Cut down a tree with its fist
Its words you dismissed
Don’t short yourself
There’s no easy way out
There’s only to endure and be true
And let the words come
And when they come
Thank them
And let the words go …

-E

Legacy

It takes vision
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Only you can see it…
So you have to carry it
And cast it everyday
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Why’s it so hard?
Why’s it everyday?
Why’s it changing me?
Why’s it breaking me and rebuilding me?
Why does it ask so much of me?
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Because it’s not about today …
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Well,
You’re not getting …
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It’s not about today…
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But you should be …
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It’s not about today…
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You deserve ….
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It’s not about today ….
——-
It’s about the back end…
It’s about the future…
You’re fighting against yourself
Your future self
Your humanity
——
It’s going to take everything you’ve got and then some…
Fresh fire
Fresh faith
Fresh discipline
Fresh vision
daily
To get you there …
This is about the future
Your future
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Are you building leaders?
Are you adding value
Or are you watering down your values
Your principles
Your vision ?
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Stay the course !
This is your future
Your vision
No one else has it
No one else sees it
Because it’s you…
Your family
Your children
Your future
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It’s not about today…
It’s about the future …
The legacy you’re leaving behind
You’re building that daily…
Start building …
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What else is there?
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-E

History

There was a time not too long ago
Past this scorched earth
Beyond this social hyperbole
Of media and mass indulgence
There in the beginning
Where a poet was fortunate to survive
To come out the other side
Into the morning
To finish the ongoing line …
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I don’t have much stomach for current things
I don’t care about skin care routines
I don’t care about influencers
I don’t care
To care ….
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Here we are on the brink
Of spurious intellectualism and activism
Poetry has always been somewhat a self portrait and running inner dialogue …
But it’s never been so proud as to exalt itself nor its own demons
We say we’ve left the crucifixion
Yet we haven’t even experienced sanctification or much less repentance …
This turning away – from and beginning – towards…
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There is a driving hammer in the echo and eye of the storm…
There is a nail through flesh and splintering dogwood…
There is the suiciding
The addiction
And the manic
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These things used to not be praised
Our afflictions
——
you can sit
High and intoxicated
And talk to change the world over
But years will pass overnight and you will be old
addictions and vices
cravings and hunger
Will hold you captive there
Repeating the same weekend year after year
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But still
There is a tunnel ahead
It is security
144 miles a day
720 a week
50 hours
Your heart stops in the night
While reaching for bread
What are you left with?
A stale breath
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What are you leaving
Where are you building
Or are you only chasing …
Believing the next thing….
The next place…
The next person…

Build
Build
Choose
Always be in control of your own self

“And some from among you shall build the old waste places; raising up the foundations of many generations; and be called The repairers of the breach, The restorers of paths to dwell in.”

We are so different now
I am so far from who I once was

Control what you can control
And decide
You decide
Choose
Always
Begin
Today
What else is there?

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The reality of champions

I don’t believe in perfect
I believe in getting better
In baseball you can lose 60 games and still be champions …
The worst team will win 60 and the best team will lose 60 …it’s what they do with the other 42 that counts…
The first 75 percent of the season isn’t as important as the last 25 percent …
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Consider your life
Stop putting so much pressure on yourself…
Just keep going…
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Every player gets his shot at the plate
It doesn’t matter how hard you threw when you were drafted
It’s how well you control right now
It doesn’t matter how well you hit
You have to throw that ball across the plate and give every player his shot …
—-
That’s life
You just keep going
You don’t stop
Don’t stop
You’re going to win some and lose some
But it’s what you do after that – that really counts …
Get in the box and keep swinging
Get on the mound and just throw the best pitch you can…
The rest will handle itself …
-E