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Stuck in time

We’ve lost a lot
like
A funeral procession
we’re stuck in time
And grief doesn’t look
The way we thought it would
Our lives aren’t lived out the way we
Thought they should
And on the days I really feel it
I just cook
With a drink in my hand
And a notebook and a pen
It’s somewhere in there
I remember that I’m not who I once was…
Maybe none of us are,
We’ve seen too much
Lost too much …
We’ve got more in common than we would know …
We’re more than dividing bitcoins
Like Jesus and the loaves of bread …
More than a hashtag
More than a filter
More than just a memory…
And who knows what lies ahead
But
for me
Everything else
Everything else
Is always in the next paragraph …
So let your hair down
Rest in my arms
Like the rain against the window
The coffee in the filter
The yuengling in the bottle
Everything else is in the next paragraph…

-E
Regardingsamuel.com

Write you again

She’s an Alabama sunrise
Over the pines
Tired from
The half hearts and broken arms
Unable to hold a heart
Intentions and meanings
just lead to more drinking
Alone …

Forgive me …if I’m writing your name in a song ….

Out here on my own …
Thinking of you again
And this Alabama sunset …
Can I write you again…

-E
Regardingsamuel.com

Love Life

But I don’t want a love story
Another adventure
I don’t want you to not be able to live without me …
Maybe I used to
Maybe I even sold that
When I was younger …

I’ve sat in funeral homes
And hospitals
I know what’s coming
I’m hyper aware
That love doesn’t win
That life is just really really hard
I want a love life, not a story
I want to build
I want both of us to be able to stand
And when life gets bad
To stand
And when it falls apart
To rebuild
What’s been broken
——
I wasn’t always this way
There isn’t love letters
There isn’t flowers
For that
Poetry doesn’t sell it
Lifetime didn’t film it
It’s unpopular
We want to obsess
And worship
And we want partners to be ok with us no matter what
While we say we don’t need anybody and maybe we don’t …maybe we truly don’t deserve anyone…
But we need goals
We need partnership
We need to build
We need responsibility
We need accountability
Ownership
We need intimacy
We need power
——
It’s the kind of understanding
That makes you an adult
Knowing that your parents are just like you…trying their best …
Knowing that your worst day hasn’t even happened yet
But it’s coming
Your parents will die
Your children will die
Your partner will die
You will lose ….
How will we stand
Against all odds
It’s not arrogance
It’s knowing
And preparing
——
I want that

-E
Regardingsamuel.com

Indifferent

Remember our younger days
When we had all the time by the throat,
Remember when we had the sun and the moon and the stars
And we gave them names
And all of the names were yours,
Once in a while I still see you
But it’s just cigarette ash
That ghost of a memory
——
Pick up your bones
Get out of the dirt
In a world where
We could have been anything
We became nothing
And we burned the city down
Just to have something easy to blame
Because we became afraid of our reflection in the bottom of the glass
So anxious
Afraid of responsibility
We couldn’t even be touched by the rain
——
We laugh and we joke
Our backs against the wall
We have no use and no direction
No goals
No ambition
Only certain suspicion
That we are out of time
——
I’ve seen business owners
Work until their bodies broke down
We all sacrifice on our way up and our way down
I’ve seen young men
Never begin
Their grave is right where they are
Oh child
You have to begin
Consistency is your greatest utility
Make sure you direct it
Because you’re using it
Already
It’s making roots
Build your momentum
It’s the little things
That make your way
——
I poured my coffee
I cleaned my room
How are you going to save the world
If you can’t even free yourself?
From the debt and the sin
The Devil is a liar my friend
We all have to begin
——
I wanted hope
I wanted to build
I wanted to help you out
But I can’t just hang around
I’m building something
You know I’ll be back around
——
All the time is going to pass
Are we going to be the same
In ten and twenty
What if we did every thing we should
What if we did everything we could
——
Am I any better than I was
Am I any better than I’ll be
Am I closer to something
I think I can see
——
You have to begin
You have to put those questions down
You have to start walking
Building your momentum
——
Remember our younger days
When we had all the time by the throat,
Remember when we had the sun and the moon and the stars
And we gave them names
And all of the names were yours…

-E
Regardingsamuel.com

Standing in the night

Long time coming
Summer is almost come and gone
Oh baby I guess you know this one
——
Remember our 20’s we thought we knew so much
Remember our 30’s we thought we were tough
——
We all have our vices
A game of chance
This lottery at midnight
We’ve seen some with hollow eyes
They didn’t pick the poison
It just came in the night
Over that mountain
Stole a whole wide world from a few…
They made their choices
We all learned the hard way
Time doesn’t suffer a fool
But we carry the memory
Like a fuel
—-
My heart starts and stops
I know you’ve got your own struggles
I’ve got my mask and my burdens too
We both wear it out on the streets of this town
I hide my scars between each line …
I bow my head
I haven’t stopped fighting that fight
Since my father died
I keep trying to get it right
And be alright
But I haven’t been able to get the words
Since my brother died …
——
Now there’s a loaded train
Running through the gut of this town
It’s got me in knots
Hey,
We gather around these empty chairs
Nursing old wounds we liked to talk about
You never know what you become
We are here one moment and gone in the night
If there’s anything worth loving
It’s the fight
And maybe we sent our youth to the door …
——
All the artist
They kind of left this place
Like all the mills from yesterday
But I swear I still see your face
Just like yesterday
——
There’s still dance marks
In the floor
Where you moved the world over
Just to prove that you could get over
Heart break
——
And there’s a long time coming
But we keep driving to get out of this town
We’ve got to make it
I’ve got to see you
And I know
We get the rain no matter what we do
And all of our vices
They wreck our voices
And god knows I’ve got a few
I don’t guess I’m as good as I could be
—-
But I know there’s nothing quite like you
Standing in the night
Standing in the night
I know you already know….
Standing in the night
I’ve got to get to you…
I’ve got to see you …
One last dance
Just to move the world over …
Standing in the night

-E
Regardingsamuel.com

Afterglow

Imagine there are as many hearts, as there are stars,
Poems,as there are brokenness and pain
Loves as there are constellations-
Imagine us
Stumbling forward
Attempting to get it right
Even so …
The words
The love
The life
How do you keep the rain from-
The moon from its afterglow ?
The stars from falling from their appointed places ?
We never really know what’s coming for us…
Even so…
Even so…
-E
Regardingsamuel.com