Welcome to your Roaring 20s

Your twenties
This is what you envision
You live on your own
Life is going to move pretty fast
You are going to hit the top
And then build an addition to it

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And then you’re going to settle down
And just enjoy your fortune
And fortunate life
That God has blessed you with

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And life says …
“It ain’t gonna happen”
At some point we all become bohemians
Like
I don’t know when it happens
But I moved my bed into a separate
Bedroom
Threw out the god forsaken frame
And just put it in the floor below the window
I have no money
I’m not successful
I’m a student
Who loves people
Which really means
I tolerate adults
And listen to their stories
But show me a child
And I’ll sit in the floor and colour with them while they sing every song from Frozen
I’m almost 100 percent positive
That it was never intended I grow up
There must have been a mistake
Somewhere a distraction was made
And the accident that was intended to take my young adult life missed me
And here I am
Maybe it was when I tried to rinse pasta and stir it with my hand ?
(Don’t stir pasta with your hand)
Or when I helped that kid change his tire and out of no where,hailstorm.
Or when I left at two am to get a coke
I have cravings late at night
For a sandwich and I have to have a coke,ok
Unfortunately I wake up with this craving and always forget I have stairs
I remember one deadfall later
But this night
What I got was two tickets
Because apparently I forgot to get a car tag and it’s raining
So you are not not not going to talk your way out of that ticket
Unless you’re British
Living in America

But seriously
When did we become adults?
Much less artist
Bohemians
We moved
I haven’t got money
I have no power
I’m living with oil lamps
And a bed in the floor
And piles and piles of books
I feel like I jumped through time
It’s fine
It will get better
I have a plan
I’m just like
Wow
This is crazy
I was talking with an instructor
at school (this is one thing I’m good at)
And she was saying how
Art majors is where it’s at
You can’t get any other job right now
So everyone is going after what they originally wanted
What they have talents in
What they are gifted for
And it’s really the rise of the artist
Free thinking
Creative individual
So if you relate
Just hang in there
It will be ok
It will
This is our roaring 20s
Nobody has it together
No one
We all just fake it
Like Indiana jones
We take it a day at a time
Some just fake it better
And that’s ok
Have a great weekend everybody

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Apart from love

Apart from the ones you love
There is yourself
And you must be that
Own your desires
Your negatives
And your positives
Your thoughts
This makes you
A whole person
With edges
And
Borders
Fully present
And it is
Freeing
And memorable
Your “yes”
And your “no”
What you are
What you are not
What you want
What you do not want
What you will settle down with
But not settle for
What you cry for
But won’t die for
What makes you
In essence
You

Apart from the ones you love
There is yourself
Be that

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Frayed

When I’m broken down
And I cannot mend
When my walls
They’re armed
So much more than armed
That’s when she walks in
Her hair on fire
Her eyes burning bright
We share the same
Darkness
We try for the light

I’m not warm
I have nothing to offer
I have nothing to give
I am
If anything
Frayed edges
Anxiety
And stars burning out
Dying

She takes my hands
And looks me in the eyes
” how are you?”

I’m fine

“Are you?”

No…
No I’m …..

And she warms me
This is what we have
We separate
But we pull each other
Back together
Again
And again
Until the end

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Leave yourself open

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life doesn’t work the way
You want it to
You grow in portions
In places,the heart remembers
Things the mind forgets
So you can’t merely “renew the mind”
You love,you ache,you take chances
And you find that sometimes
Even though you’ve spent your whole life saying
You don’t need anyone
You meet someone
Who
Touches every dark corner
And all the pain
And rearranges all the books in your heart
You find that you are capable of
Loving completely
You find that these people don’t always stay
But be glad
For the time you had
Keep their secrets safe

Things take time
It’s a process
We’re all in process
And
It’s ok
Just be open
Open to new happiness
New change
And never touch anything
With half your heart

The look

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What if I told you
you are enough?
What if I told you
feeling so deeply
Everything, so deeply
Is ok
I could never lie
I would rather we be real
Than anything less
Just be real

I sat with my niece and nephew
All night in the hospital recently
It changed my perspective
We all were homeschooled
We all grew up in highly conservative
Religious families
We all wrestle this feeling
That we are not enough
And yet, too much at the same time
We feel things too deeply
We worry about what we might not know
We think too much

I laughed and finally said
” all of this, all of it, can be used
For something, it is what it is.”

You have to live
And the great thing
I cantell you
Is that you are capable of more than you know
You are stronger than you think you are

We are artist
We are writers
We are human
The world asks us to make decisions
Logically
Without emotion
But sometimes
We are more than they can handle
Running over with emotions
Like a storm rising inside of us
We are chaotic
We are our own
Don’t let people make you feel like less
Don’t let them add to your darkness
It’s all yours every part
And there is nothing
Nothing you are not capable of
Stop trying to manage the weight
Just lift it
You’re stronger than you think you are
And you’re …
You are your own.
All the pieces
All the shadows
All the strengths
The emotions
The questions
The confidence
It’s all you
You have the look
The look that catches people’s eye
And it will inspire
It will make a difference
Because it’s real
You have the look

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Say Yes

This is good life advice

Arielle Land

I figure life’s a gift and I don’t intend on wasting it. You don’t know what hand you’re gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you… to make each day count.

My favourite thing to do is something I’ve never done before. Adventures have brought me depth, wonder and joy to my life that no one or nothing can ever compete with.

How do I ensure my life is filled with adventure?

Blowing Bubbles

Make plans (but be open to random adventures that take over).
Never, ever hike the same path.
Cross off a bucket list item.
Always try a new restaurant.
heck, try a dish that you can’t even pronounce.
Talk to strangers.
Skip a few of those 8 “needed” hours of sleep
& add some hours of randomness.
Try a new sport.
Stop doing what’s comfortable
& experience what’s makes you uncomfortable.
Turn off…

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One for the century

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Nerves on my skin are raw again
And I can’t focus
I’m at this place again

You come for me
But I’m not here
You look for me
But I’m not there
It takes two for it to work
Not one and the other at their
Convenience
I’m a terrible mess

And after all this time
I can’t believe
The pieces
I’ve hid away
That you can’t see
And no one ever told us about
The break after the fall
And no one ever told us
About the pain in
learning to walk
And between all the politics
And the world
And religion
And war
Somebody should have told us
That people aren’t objects
You can’t put them in cages to pour your love in and control
You can’t use people or judge them
Someone should have told us
The worst we can do
Is underestimate ourselves
Here we are numb at the starting gate
Hiding our shadows from the light
It’s been a long time coming
Can you help me make sense of this place ?
Can I hide my face in you?