In a ditch
Up a cliff
It’s a weird feeling
——
You
Feel
Something is expected
But you don’t know
What it is…
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You see it all projected
But you can’t read the headlines
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These days
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Bleeding Ink 1,449
Bleeding ink #1,448
Talk about
Your doomesday state of mind
All the colour from the sunrise
Fades…
Worn through
Bleached out
I’m cut open
Like the emptiness inside of this room
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She says
Tell me again
How I’m too much
And never enough
And
The way we landed
From sky high
To these trenches
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They said we would always have ….
And they said
Even gods and angels
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The hurricane is coming
How hungry will you be
Esau sold his birthright for a bowl of stew
Jacob wrestled God until morning
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It feels like a 100 lb anvil in the center of my chest
I keep looking for truth
Keep looking for you
But all I see
Is these rains
These days
This hurricane
The Genius and Wisdom of Noel Gallagher
Happy Birthday Noel
“If I can give you any advice, it’s this: every hour that you spend sat on the couch doing nothing, put it to good use, because when you have kids, an hour is like a lifetime.“
“I had a stylist once. She was called mum and when I got to about 11 she got the sack. So no, I don’t have a stylist, and I find people that do have stylists – they’re just squares… Rock stars shouldn’t have stylists. I think it says a lot about you when you have one. You’ve given up. If you can’t dress yourself what are you?” 
“Even then I felt that it was the end of something rather than the beginning. It was the pre-digital age. It was the pre-talent show-reality tv age.
Things meant more.
It was just a great time to be alive.
We were about to enter into celebrity driven culture. And I’ve always thought that it was the last great gathering of the people before the birth of the internet. It’s no coincidence that things like that don’t happen anymore. 20 years ago The biggest musical phenomenon was a band that came from council estate, I just think in the times that we live, it would be unrepeatable. And we should be worried about that. Because where’s it going to be, 20 years from now? ”
– Noel Gallagher – Oasis Supersonic The Documentary.
On playing knebworth ’96 where 2.6 million people applied for tickets, 4% of the population. 
James Bond Theme
“I would do it if I was asked. I would do it in a heartbeat. I could do it and it would be great, but I’m not a star and for that you have to be a big star. You have to be someone in America.” 
“We were the first people to come out and say, “The world’s a great place, life is for living. Forget grunge music. Get a pint of Guinness down your neck, and pick that guitar up.”
“You can’t afford to think about what might have been. You just be aware of what is.”
“My first instinct when I write songs is not a negative one. It’s something positive… Everything I’ve ever done has some form of hope in it, I think.”
“You’ve just got to trust your instincts and realize that you can’t please all the people all the time. You’ve got to please yourself ultimately in the end.”
2020 #9
2020 #8
Maybe we didn’t realize what we had.
We sat at the bar every weekend talking about the virus. It was this fog in the distance. Like a whale under water, all you could see was the blurred image.
D, would come in with her pro roe shirts and explain her newest tattoo, there across her ribs.
We became this community,
A, bought me a drink and would explain how she backpacked Europe in the ‘70s
Sure, age was just a number, but it was also a feeling she said. You’re as old as you feel, she looked over at a girl dancing;
Once you get a certain age or feeling, you’re invisible and that is so much worse than dying. Enjoy it, you only live once. she said.
We were all there.
Maybe we didn’t know what we had.
We worked all week.
We were relaxing.
And now we are different. We’ve grown, we’re older, softer, stronger, We’ve never been here before…
And I wonder what stories we will tell…
When we are all together again.
If we would be so present
We could all hear the others heartbeat.
This is us.
In these very small, extraordinary moments….
They flash by us
Becoming a year
A wrinkle on our skin
A grey hair
Part of us
Leaving it’s mark…
This is our lives.
Look Back
“Though much is taken, much abides; and though
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.”
-Alfred Lord Tennyson
1. I know it hurts. I know it feels Overwhelming, right here, this year, that storm, this virus, your heart, past love, tomorrows horizon.
Look back
I remember the woods. The cold concrete floors. The bear. The deer. The mountain lion.
2. This is where I learned how to read.
3. Everyone has a childhood. Everyone has something they get over.
Remember you can remain solid and still grow, still change. You can move in and out from this. It’s a dance,
There’s room for you to grow into yourself. Light shines brighter in the dark.
Look back, see how far you’ve come. Only compare yourself to yourself.
It’s quiet, in the mornings…
I think about the time we danced in the kitchen, drinking coffee…
I think about all that I’ve seen
How everything is temporary,
Everything changes…
I’ve changed
We can’t go back
We’ve seen too much
Felt so much
We will never be the same
And that’s ok
We will never be right here again
Be gentle
Let yourself be here
Let yourself grow
Ragged and Broken
Ragged
Used and broken
We are what we hate
—
It’s just words
But once they’ve been spoken
I’d never seen anyone quite like that
She had the attitude
But she lacked the gratitude
Now she’s somewhere between Greece
Sometimes I think of her and I wonder…
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Raggedy Anne lights her cigarette
And the shoe shine boy
Drinks his last drink
She’s getting on the first bus out of here
But the tire’s ragged and busted
Now she’s at the diner
Between 9-5
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What good am I
Am I ragged and broken
Or am I just broken down
Too many drinks
Too many fist fights in my sleep
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Do you keep the receipts
For all the things they’ve sold you
If we don’t find the changes that heal
We will just be
Ragged used and broken
We are what we hate
